It's Like I'm Not Exist

have you ever felt being ignored by everyone around you ?
it feels like, argh! No one seems to care about what I say or do or act like. It's like I'm an invisible.

well, I'd rather stay in one place on my own, enjoy solitude.
but, when I'm in the middle of a group of people, i feel like to doing or talking something with them, enjoy the situation, I wont be in the clumsy feel.
ya, I dont like talking trash, or talking such as,
"oh, you're going to the same school with this guy? say hi from me ya! I'm his ex girlfriend when we were in the 8th grade, he is so cool, I know. But, wtf! when I knew that her mom is a lesbian I immediately dumped him of course ........ and bla bla blah"
some people (most of people I know) like to do that kind of conversation.
And I'm not one of that people I think, I like to listen but I dont really like speak up for things like that.
so maybe that's why I'm slightly hard to be in their situation.
I just wanna be true to my self and follow what the real me. Not a big mouthed, I'm a quite one.

maybe I'm being thought out to be a very individual.
I 'm feeling better when I'm alone.

......
Holding me back, everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner
Listen to me, oh no
I never say anything at all
But with nothing to consider they forget my name

.......
So alone all the time and I
Lock myself away
Listen to me, I'm not
Although I'm dressed up, out and all with
Everything considered they forget my name

the ting tings - that's not my name

especially when they forgeet my name! argh!
but, ok, their brain isn't centrino duo